on the dancefloor

Hello all...

Well this blog is a little bit more serious than normal as my saturday night ( or rather Sunday night since it's almost 5 in the morning now...) has turned into shit. Yes....another one of Trinh's crazy partying night. It all started out with me, trying to find costume for the 80's party at Pink....led me to Qipu lu ( cheapo lu as it's known) where it's actually a clothing market with..AMAZING clothes. Think high end fashion being copied off for the masses... Nothing say love like a Dries Van Noten bag for less than 20 dollars.... I found some sick pieces of clothing in this market today with Bonnie and Summer.

Anyhow, i went to Bonnie's house, got dress. Put on my short shorts and pull on my tube socks, put on my headband a ready for a rocking night as Bonnie don a turquoise legging and scrunching up her hair 80's style while Summer putting on an 80's dress...looking quiet fierce I might add... more baby phat thought....

Got to pink, great music, rocking it out with our friends. Sam and the gang are pulling on their 80's sweaters... love them. LOVE SAM!!! He has quickly becoming my fav person in Shanghai. Nothing say fabulous like a fabulous gay british boy who gets me at every level/sense of humor. Dance our ass off at Pink to Simon awsome DJ-ing skills... I look to the side and saw Simon DJ-ing while the background LED light flashes hearts...and I think I was in love with him...hehehe

I was on cloud nine... the music, the people, my friends, I'm having way too much fun in Shanghai. Then we all decided to go to DEEP..... got into DEEP with my friends.... thinking that Sam, Bonnie and I look absolutely ridiculous with out outfits but if we all go in together, we'll be fine. Our friends all hold our hands as we walk into deep...me showing my asian gams like these Chinese boys have never seen before. I was having fun chit chatting with people on the garden outside of Deep before coming in.... then as I hit the inside of deep, who should I see standing there talking with his friend but Chuck... the only boy that I have met in Shanghai that...can screw me up emotionally for good. He saw me, chat with him and let me give you a brief downlow on it...

Chuck compliments me, I ask him how he have been... keep in mind that i'm slightly buzzed from the beer at Pink... then the next thing I knew, we were talking about how he haven't been going through with what he told me he would do... he wasn't upfront about telling me if he likes me or not, or what's going on between us. Long story short....I end up telling him that I might be in Shanghai living it up, I'm not letting this city changing me into one of those guys who go from guy to guy one night to the next. I'm still a boy from the midwest who wants someone to be with me for who I'm. There were other exchanges between us but I told him how I feel and I walked away...outside to my friends where Bonnie saw me wasn't ok and we have to had a conversation on the side of the building where I was trying to hold back tears.... He was the last person I expected to see and he is the only person in Shanghai that can F* me up that good.... needless to say I wasn't ok after that exchange. Sam drag me to Windows....dear god again, i went , had a drink but Bonnie and I decided to went home and now I'm here....

Oh Shanghai... one moment you can be as high as the Jinmao tower, the next, it could be as low as the crawling beggar on the street..... there is never any inbetween with it.....

So to my readers out there... if you're still single, I feel you. If you're not single, count your blessings because if you remember back to your single days.... remember how tough it's??? yes...